alrights today is a FABULOUS day, not forgetting absolutely SATISFYING !!!anyway just to sidetrack a little, i m just a teeny bit disturbed by the way my day had started. i had this really really weird dream; it was really vivid from the physical to the mental guilt.the dream had an exact time frame as the life i lead, which is sort of rather scary. in reality, the bf has just left for his long outfield this morning n i had also planned to meet up with the fool for some shopping (more on tt later). n the dream took place in a scenario like this."i was gg home aft the shopping trip with the fool n he (an ex-crush which we shall call THE estranged) was sitting coincidentally. we talked abit n soon the bus reached my stop n somehow he alight n we were getting some drinks when he held my hand. n i felt the heartbeat, attraction, confusion n guilt all tgt. n the next thing i knew, we were kissing. it was warming, which scares me even more. in the dream, we didn't say much but the feeling was very real. it even occured to me tt i shouldn't be doing this on the exact day tt the bf had left for his outfield.the only comforting part was i rmbed how much the bf had meant to me cos at some pt in time, i contemplated my nx step of avoiding the estranged or letting go of the bf. all i felt was tt i had to hold on the the bf no matter wat n THE estranged was just an accident.but it really gave me a bad fright as i even felt the surprise tt THE estranged still had feelings for me. though there was no doubt tt the bf would be the ultimate choice, it's still astonishing i even hoped tt THE estranged just wasn't thinking str."it's really freaky though some may argue tt it's only a dream. somehow it still felt like an act of betrayal n i blame myself for even thinking abt it.however, it has been a really odd period of time this past few weeks. i keep having weird but vivid dreams worthy of a blockbuster serial. it's really like watching tv with my brain as the screen.
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oh ya, back to my fulfilling day. wonderful shopping plus madness tgt with great bargains. we shopped for close to 9 hours man, how long is tt for walking? how abt a marathon?
of cos not forgetting the "unsightly"amt of money spent. but tt's nt dampening my shopping high since the money was proudly sponsored by my mum. if u r criticising my loserly behaviour, quit it since I M PAYING MY OWN FREAKING EX FEES !!!
alright's tt'll b all since it's rather long already. oh, n meeting with the fool NEVER fails to upset my stomach.
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