just came home. wrote all tt i wanted to say while walking home just now, in case i forgot the feeling.
walked all the way from still road all the way back home. mayb the fool is right, a walk does make the heart lighter.
breathing wrks, but the problem remains.
i think i m far too optmistic which seems ridiculously impossible in her pessimistic eyes. i have absolutely no idea what consolations to dish out from that pathetic dictionary of mine.
tell me, wat can i say to make her feel better?
it kills me to to c tt lost look plastered across her face, scribbled all over tt look in her eyes.
BUT WHAT CAN I DO?
so many knots, dead knots. n i no longer have the freedom to slowly untie them in this little space of mine without being boned out by the unknowns.
i believe in sunshine aft the rain.
i believe each storm is just a result of a passing cloud.
i believe tt we grow stronger with each failure.
"it not how high u fall tt matters, it's how high u bounce."
i believe in the powers of the mind.
i believe they do wonders, they create miracles.
n she believes none of it. she no longer sees hope n light. all she sees in front of her is her failure n the disappointment she has caused to her loved ones.
how can i make her understand tt god laid the roads such tt there are no dead-ends for his children?
len says she has to pick herself up slowly, according to her exp. but do we just leave her drowning in the waters n hope she learns how to trap water to save her own life?
if there is ever sth i can do, a mile or a yard, name it.
can You show me the way?
i dun wanna hold up this facade anymore. all i wanna do is to find a corner n watch the days go by, sunset aft sunrise n sunrise aft sunset. falling back while u steer me in the right directions.
n he said: dark angel, they can say anything they wan to say. try to bring me down but i will not allow anyone to succeed in hanging clouds above me, there's a light in me tt shines brightly. they can try but they can't take tt away from me. (mariah carey's can't take tt away from me.)
his words reminded me of the light within n the strength i possessed. n i m grateful for this kinda reminders tt keep u in the right path.
but can u teach me how do i bring this light to shine the paths of those lost in the forest?
lastly, i pass my math. great, left pbf. argh~
(i hope tmr's plan wrks out n i can't wait to meet the fool.)
to anonymous, sorry for the entries earlier on. i m just too used to venting out frustrations in this box. however, it's also an attempt to let u noe tt there r things i can't tolerate n i do extremes when cornered. (btw the definition of "harrassment" has been re-defined to ensure tt it is not an isolated incident. i've gt 1anonymous tag left aft deleting tt last tag, but come back again n u'll b liable for charges. i ain't kidding.)
