IT has arrived earlier than usual, and 5 mths earlier no less.


THE inevitable STRESS.


i dunno y when i lay on the bed just now, i could nt fall aslp no matter how hard i try. i guess is my screwed body clock. n when i can't slp, i get irritated and emo n i turn vulgar n this makes me more irritated with myself apart from the fact tt my body is refusing slp.

i guess by coming online, i've already semi-decided tt i do not wanna go sch tmr already. i noe it's bad an am super angry with myself for that too but i really need that break. but i can already predict the outcome tmr will turn out to be me gg to sch reluctantly and feeling more sucky than ever abt it. in the end i took a "chakra" test only to realise tt my mood today and as a person on the whole, i am really NOT at peace with the world.

n it really pisses me off a great deal tt i m so EMO despite having a good time at the bowling rink earlier plus supper with my much loved beancurd.

thus, i have decided to turn to FUSHION for some comfort on demand to ease all the uneasy feelings i feel, to forget the negative feelings and to forget tt i m really not a 好人 nor a 好朋友 nor a 好女儿 nor a combination of 好 anything.

yes i noe tt some beloved 好人 and 好朋友 of mine will tell me tt this is definitely nt the case but as in all past emo events, just leave me alone as it is really just temporary, or so i hope to believe.



ps, note also tt it bothers me quite a fair bit TONIGHT (only) tt i have no aspirations, no passion and no direction in life.


it really bothers me.

♥ 2:46 AM